insomnia.....

recently....i have serious insomnia.....i cant slp at night....i can only slp at the morning....
i was thinking alot of things.....this,that........im tired.....pls let me rest...im bagging u...
i was thinking about..were suicide will make it better???did whn a person died...
he never have to think or pay???were suicide are escape??i dun think so...
suicide is let everything in ur mind disappear....who said a child no panic??
im the one who a child in panic......wat i panic for???alot.....pls let me go.....
i really hope tat GOD can hear wat im saying.....n wat im thinking...
GOD.....pls save me.....out of the world.....this fake,pretending,cruel...world....
n i was stay at tis world ady 18yrs.....pls...im really bagging u...save me.....

moody...

recently....my feeling goes to moody.......and many things to let me figured......the relationship...
the money......i think i gt to change my way.....in Chinese..has 1 word called "a bird without leg"...
mayb i should be that way...a bird never stop...keep upgrading...keep changing....
nw i can feel the "reality world" in my dic.....and i realize 1 important things tat is...
never let anyone know who u are and wat u thinking......tat the way nw I'm facing....
everything in my dic will nw changing....to more reality and more pretending.....
pretend=is the things tat very important to anyone...including me.....
finally.....i found out.....im nt love her anymore.....and remember....i will keep changing...and pretending.....bcareful.....